Everything seems normal for me. But there are some new changes in my sister’s life. She has got herself a boyfriend, finally. After grumbling so long without a love life, now she got it. Maybe I have not been in a relationship that is why I don’t understand why couples have to meet everyday without fail and the thing is, they have to reach home real late and I wonder where they spend their time doing? Is it that all couples are like this? And I am the ignorant one?I am starting to feel that I wish that my relationship with my sister should not be that close-knitted. Because the way she has changed affect my life too. From now on, I got to find new company for myself or I have to go out alone now. I couldn’t bother my mum that much as she is not that young anymore as to shop around with me. I got to find my friends to accompany me but I am not that kind who always find my friends to go for shopping everytime, unless I am shopping for things like birthday gift and all. Now I started to get myself used to shop around on my own. Get ready for the things that I need and I go to the right place and buy the required things and that’s it, no more additional shopping around.What my sister’s friend foresee is all correct. Hah. Really gotta find some friends to accompany me from now on. No more shopping with my sister unless that guy is busy or sleeping (which is very rare, I wonder whether he need any sleep at all). Pathetic for me hah. The first two weeks I really feel I cannot take it, I have got major adjustments to make for my daily lifestyle. I seem to be a little bit jealous that my sis’s available time is all taken up and nothing is left for me. But now I am gradually used to it because I know no matter how many grumbles I have, it will change nothing. What has happened will continue to be so unless there are any changes in their relationship (which from what I see shouldn’t be so).
Human greatest achievement that that we always learn to adapt to new things. Adapt is the greatest and most basic thing in our lives (mentioned in sun xie zi (tony sun)’s second book (Zhi Qi)) I agreed with him, that is very true. I should not always have the mindset that she will be always around to accompany me, she has her own life to go through too. Not to always being hither by her ‘useless’ sister (which is me). Haha. Well I cant always expect other people to worry about my own life when I, myself is not practical enough. But the thing is, I hate changes in life. I like things to happen the way they always have been. But it seems unlikely. Because I cant even stop stupid things happening to myself, not to mention people around me. When I hate something it does not mean it will stop happening, it just give me more grumbling to do. Hah.I don’t care I am being inconsiderate, disrespect or difficult person in her relationship, if I got to care so much it will be more exhausting (regarding the fact that I am already bothering myself about this kind of small issue now).
I don’t want to care. She is enjoying her life and wanted to against all odds to be in the relationship, why should I bother myself so much?? I am too emotional… Bad pisces genes. Hah.By the way, forgot to mention my mum. She is trying to be a open-minded person. Anticipating to meet the guy also. Hah. But start to feel a little bit frustrated when she realised what time my sis is reaching home and what time she is ending calls at night (or morning?). My mum wanted to chase her home and wanted to call my sister almost every night. But the thing is, I seems to be the one reminding her and calling her ah. Haha~ Mama gambate!P/s I don’t really like this kind of possessive guy. Don’t like his attitude either. Dislike his inconsiderateness. But I understand his desire and emotions as to why sometime he reacted the way he reacted. I understand does not mean I accept. He still got a long way to go for my approval. (if he ever think he want my approval, don’t think he wants it and needs it)it’s all my own subjective view. My own childish thinking. Nobody ever require my approval or permission for anything. U all can do whatever u want. Haha. Friends when u are getting married still got to invite me ah, even if I don’t approve your husband-to-be, I still want to enjoy a wedding ceremony. hah.
There is nothing I can say, because it doesn’t matter and doesn’t make any difference. Come on, I said I like to grumble in my blog already la…
Sunday, August 13, 2006
