Tink I am cheated. Tat primary school frenz of mine had been holding things back from me. We are like wat hmmm, never seen each other in like 6 years. Things really changed. when i tink haven. Tink she really dun understand or know me. if she know me she would know wat to do. if she know she treat me like other frenz or colleagues of hers. if she know, she will know to me wat are things i accept wat are the things i dun. Sad to say. days before I was so glad to have a gathering with her to share how is her life now.
Being so secretive make me feel uncomfortable. Of cos I know she wont harm me but… I even tot of her as religious ppl who wan to gather more ppl in their place. Den yesterday I tot she is working for employment agency tat’s why she say she hav job for me. I make all kinds of wild guessing. Cos she simply wont tell me wat is it.
Until yesterday I went to meet her, thinking of discovering the truth. Having a simple-minded thoughts, happily meeting my frenz but things ain’t wat I expected.
She worked for a health company tat sell health product and earn commission. She wan me to join her as wat they call? Ya business partner. Started at 3 pm she introduce me to the products, I was like thinking she is going to make me buy the products. Although I must admit the products are really quite good. At the end if her talk I am like wow tink I should get the products.
But den bomb! She brought me to Hans’ and start to convince me to sell all those products with her. Using strategic persuasive talking all the way to 6pm. Wow in one day she is going to make me make promises and start work with her. She started explaining how good her company system was. How friendly are the colleagues and how much $ will I get.
I was like can u give me time to think? She is like she is going to make me make life changes right at this moment. The offer is tempting, everything is tempting. I am tempting but I am unwilling to make commitment. Right at that moment. It feel like everything is not right. I reject her say I am afraid of I am not confident to do it i dun wan this. If she wan me to work with her in this thing I gotta tink for some time.
The next thing she did is she went out a call for a long time. Ta da! A senior colleague of hers come in with her and start all over with me. my frenz say she just accidentally or say conincidentallly saw her senior outside Hans' so she bring her in. of cos as fool can see my frenz call her to come down and talk to me. or else she wont stay out talking on the phone for so long or else her colleague wont know i am her pri frenz when i haven tell her anything. when she got in i know things are getting complicated i am not getting away so easily. I tot this is a frenz thing but actually now I realise whatever I was assuming was wrong. Her colleague talk abt my future my parent future, my dreams my financial plan, my thinking, my reasons, wat should I do and whatever life was in one hour all the way to 7pm. I tell u her one hour talking is the same pressure as compared to my frenz 3pm to 6pm. Wow~ this person is great I can tell u. I told her I dun wan it. After her 30min talk den she start over again. She say are u afraid of challenges? Are u afraid of working hard? Are u not dare to dream? Are u going to sacrifice ur parent future? Are u going to waste ur time? Do u still wan to play? Do u know wat u wan to do?
wow man. This is just great.
I told her this area is not my interest after the next 30 min. and sorry for wasting ur precious time and $ (time = $)
Wa everything she say is right doesn’t it? All I get is headache after everything. never been anybody making me feel so stressful like my hair will be falling out except for myself. It was like she wont let me go home. It was like a longest lecture I ever had. all the thing i wan to do is go home. wat her senior is talking abt is the things i tot at night when nobody is ard. feel like sobbing or watever. I know I hav to face the truth I know all the things she said is the truth. i just wan to be happy. Life is a lesson man.
i dunno why i feel like being cheated. haha. her colleague and my frenz are like so puzzled how cum i dun accept. i luan ying bu chi. she finally hav no choice but to let me go. i tot i was goin to stay there forever listening to a lecture call 'LIFE'. when nobody is on my side. they say if u go back and think it will be a different story. they keep questioning are u thinkin tat we r lying to u? it's all a completely different world to me. so foreign.
Well, if my frenz was the one who told me everything, if she wasn’t being so secretive for months, if she sincerely talk to me as a frenz, if she is the one, if the approach is different, I would have say yes. Certainly.
well, this kind of talk is beneficial in some sub-consciously maybe i dunno. though i know i dun need somebody else to talk sense into me. i am just too stubborn.
Thursday, November 24, 2005
