Well, dreams are hard to sought for.
Just receive a call that an uncle of mine passed away in China and now his family members areether they are employing ppl again. she say iras is always employing staffs. so she say she will help me. i told her i send online application also. hopefully some good news will come.
A relative of mine say i can go bank and ask for study loan. say put the loan name under mine and say i take the money den return after i start working. this one got to ask. when ppl dun hav plans for u, u hav to plan for yourself no matter how incompetent u are. no choice. grumble abt how cum no plans r work out for u or how cum u r ler study loan. say put the loan name under mine and say i take the money den return after i start working. this one got to ask. when ppl dun hav plans for u, u hav to plan for yourself no matter how incompetent u are. no choice. grumble abt how cum no plans r work out for u or how cum u r left with no savings for ur study and how cum u end up gotta see to everything yourself while frenz ard u got things done. no use. all no use. wanting to still give yourself the imagination tat ppl who r more experienced or wat will help u but all u ever got is 'u choose it yourself' when u hav 0% in knowledge of anything. all they can say is DIY. i really hope i am someone tat ppl have already planned my life for me. den i juz simply follow the path they draw. i hate to do meticulous thinking. i juz hope everything to be simple. so simple tat i wont need to think so much. but why i just cant do tat. i wan a simple life i dun wan to know so many things in life. Ignorance is bliss. Finally i understand that. Heard someone saying tat are u still living in your dreamland? well, i am. and i am not making any effort to step out of it cos the world outside may destroy me. and everyone is saying the same thing.
Btw, ann i will keep a lookout for the kind of job u wan.
my ma wanna meet my frenz who sell the health products. the middle-man which is feeling a bit weird right now. my ma wants it but she wants me to go to the training course for her. but yesh aunt-ie i dun feel like it. it's like making my life toughing. told u all i hate to do complicated things, i can listen n advise other ppl but i just cant do it to myself can?!
Just wish my sis to have a stress-free life den she dun need to worry much. haha saying all these but the sole provider of stress maybe is me. hoho. pathetic huh.
Well, i already say i got a pathetic n tired~ful life. saw some variety show say tat pisces for next year really need to work very hard to get $$. ha.... tat's my life always.... my mental is already giving me enough stress without all the other outer stress givers.
As i say when ppl die, our lives still goes on.
Monday, December 05, 2005
