Lynn Lee aka Lemon

Sian~ juz now juz type a long long page and my comp kana sai auto close my window and all gone and I gotta type my sorrow again now. Dun worry it will a lot simple now.

Now I really know tat I can cry a lot and I know wat e suffering in a job is like. I nv know I can cry for a job like tis. Really amazing. Cry for 2 days the mood is still there. Really not bad. Really emotional, maybe my menses coming or whatever.

I give myself a limit, this job no matter how tiring and torturing it is, I will bear with it until my last day dun continue complaining cos my blog cant bag all of it and my ma n sis are getting tired. So I dun complain, now I juz say tired. I wan to sleep I wan to eat when I got home. Nv know working can make me feel so wei qu sia.

They can anyhow extend working hrs w juz one call, mess my off day with their meeting, 8am meeting after tat go straight to work till 10pm. It’s not treating us like human. Mayb I should go mom and ask them whether they hav the right to do that. (well, they give a lot of rights to themselves, bravo~!) their management ppl’s attitude sucks big time man. So damn arrogant use their chin to talk to ppl, think their position are so damn high above u and u are no match to talk to them.

I can tahan every nasty work they give, do everything they tell me to do, just tat they dun touch my limit. Dun mess with my possessions. I wont take it lying down.

Yesterday there is a shop visit, merchandising ppl, marketing ppl and a head department came and talk talk see see. Let’s dun mind the first n second person’c criticize words and facial expressions and their tone. They went over to the counter and took away all the cds ard at the cd player. I’m serving the customers so I dunno when my leader tell me they are already leaving, one bag full of cds, including mine also.i’m so damn angry who give them the right to do these kind of things? Took my things without my permission? HELLO~! Who do u tink u are!?
They juz leave like tat my leader juz say I pay u a new cd. Not intending (mayb cannot) to negotiate with e M M ppl (short form pls bear with me dun wanna spell tat name, bothers me and irritates me). What?! Giving up juz like tat? My leader say she is like vaguely rem like we are not suppose to listen to other cds other than the company cds. Kao~ isn’t it too late? My shi kang jun cd is like nv listen it for 10 times den it’s gone. Hell with the damn damn management! She afriad to get into trouble so dun dare to say anything, she is the leader she nv say anything….. so I gotta fight for myself wat,

Today I went to their main office to find one of the M girl. Told my leader already she knew it juz tell me not to be too late for work. Cos today I half day in the morning to afternoon. (well I juz realise I hav 5.5 work week not 6 days which my leader tot I hav after working 6 days for 3 weeks already and my pay for 3 weeks was only 460, not afraid to tell u all my $$ tat’s really what I got, dunno how they counted also) 10am reached, they got meeting I waited atill abt 11am. Den she came out, I told her I wanna take back my cds is it ok? Cos I dunno company hav tis kind of rule. She said,” Who told u can take back?! Confiscate means confiscate.” But I say I still wan, not really my fault I dunno abt tis thing. She say she call my territory head. I saw my territory head during the one hr waiting time, she ask me y am I here. I told her I wan to take back my cds from e M girl. Den she nod and walk away n continue to do her business liao.

After a while, another malay guy in-charge came out. I told him again abt my cds. He said, “ have u told ur leader? Did u contact ur territory head? What they say?” I say they nv say anything.( really wat they nv say anything, tat territory head even nod n walk away nv tell me cannot take back one wat!) he said, “ u cannot anyhow come to the office and like tis, u muz tell ur leader and head and see what they say/do. Confiscate means confiscate! It’s our policy for a long time. U go back to work. Go back. Dun stay here!” den he went back to office. My voice tremble when I told him I dunno abt tis policy and all that. Kana sai I cry again. Tis are all angry tears I can tell u. my hands turned all white I feel so agitated. They dun even give me any face. Any face at all. Attitude like shit. Cant they explain to me nicely why is it so?! Cant they juz dun shout at me?! Who give them e right to treat me like tis. I nv even raise my voice or wat. Ma de.

Later I contact my mum, she came down. Go to the office again. I call tat M girl out again. She is sooooo damn surprised to see my mum standing beside can tell from her big damn eyes. I say, ‘ I really wan to take back my cds.’ Wah she disappeared so fast behind the door and a heater discussion started with her voice and a guy voice and a girl one. den after a long while, M girl came out with another girl taking tat bag full of cds and allow me to take back. Kao~ they really juz give face to my mum ah. They dun even care abt me.bloody fucker! Sorry but tat’s who they are. I also tell them well I tink u miss out some cds isn’t it? My colleague wang lee hong and SHE cds M girl “purposely” nv take and she all the others. Wow~ den she give all the surprise and shock face tat she can give. Kao~ stop acting my dear~ it’s not convincing u wan to take, take all, dun choose. In tat bag my sis cds tat I took all disappeared, they say tat all we hav we nv remove anything, ah who believe u? tink u all distribute ard the office enjoying the cds I wont also right?! So I juz take my original cd tat’s it. It’s not as if I cant pay another 20 dollars for a new cd. I’m not tat poor. But at least can u give me a good enough reason for me to accept this? My mum keep scolding den tat M girl keep nodding nothing to say. I v shuang. They explain to my ma abt burnt cds if got catch company die, blah blah blah, come on I’m willing to bet with u, u go any outlet now I pay for ur cab, see they got play other cds anot. I guarantee I’ll win. SURE CASE. I’m juz suai to meet u M girls. With u all chasing our asses no wonder my leader so scared of u all. Scared her butt got burn. But tink tis time it’s I who lighted the match to burn ur ass. A bit sorry la. I told them u miss out tat 2 cds how come? M girl act blur den both girls discuss in english wat by now take home already. My mum not bad replied in chinese, “ dang rai la, xian zai yi ding dai hui jia le ah!” den they dare not say anything in private, dun play play ok!? My ma know a little bit of english also. Dun tink u can fool her. It’s ur own stupidness dun blame others, if u wan to confiscate all dun choose. Arrogant ppl.
Wanna help my colleague take back their cds but it’s like I take a lot. Cos my ma keep telling them I’m a new staff haven work for long dunno such things and only bring a few cds den got confiscated. My colleague got 5 cds all got casing and all that bu hao yi si to take, will become a lot. Hai~ maybe I should take for her. Tat girl keep saying u only take ur own take ur own one only, make me a bit confuse.

Hai~ tink I really got my leader into trouble. It’s her blurness tat cos this thing to happen cos she forgot we cant listen to other cds in shop. Her fault she also dun dare to say anything liao. Me doing so much, she sure kana one. hai~ a bit like yi ya huan ya, but I’m not purposely one la. Cos she is really a good person juz very blur, forget tis, forget tat. Hai ya feel a bit guilty. My pay low tink also becos she nv do properly. Hai~ wat can I say…

but now i am very sure i dun wan to extend to the end of the month. period. no more second thought.